rebeccmeister | Moving Forward Slowly

If I worked in a widget factory, at least every day I'd have the satisfaction of seeing a pile of completed widgets by the end of the day.

Right now, two major things are going on:

1. I'm trying to form coherent thoughts about a life transition I made in my mid-twenties. It was kind of a leap from what I'd call "romantic imaginary dreaming" into adopting the slogan "if it isn't happening already, it isn't going to happen" to get myself out of that dream-state into reality. It's never been a complete transition, and it probably shouldn't be. I think this has come up again because I'm trying to dream up futures for myself, which then need to be connected to real life somehow. I don't want to reach my deathbed with regrets, basically. That's not exactly what I mean, but close enough. I suspect this will continue on for the rest of my life, but it also seems to come to a head periodically. Generally when I have too much time to think.

2. I'm in the middle of a bunch of different things, casting about to decide how to get these things done and getting stuck in the step of committing to finish them. At work: experiments with most of the data collected need to have data analyzed and interpreted, I'm trying to get some new experiments launched in the next couple of days, and there's that backlog of papers to write, too. Hard to settle on just one thing.

At home, I'm halfway through a bunch of things, too: replacing my computer's keyboard (stalled at the step of having the correct torx wrench at my disposal), starting tomato seedlings (got soil in pots and the plant light set up, but haven't put seeds in the soil yet), installing drip irrigation (got it installed, just need to poke holes in the tubing so water can actually drip out), attaching hooks to a board so I have somewhere to hang up clothes (board located, hooks acquired, just need to bust out the drill and use it)...sigh.

It will all get done. Eventually.