Bleah

I had one of those reminders yesterday from someone about how, in a lot of ways, the pandemic has led to an exaggerated emotional rollercoaster. It makes my neck sore. Yesterday was an Anxiety day for me, which was REALLY not fun. One of the most frustrating things about Anxiety days is that I often get anxious because I want to be Doing things, but anxiety leads to decision paralysis and then I don't manage to get so much done after all. A common occurrence, I am sure.

By the way - I think it's important to note that I definitely wouldn't classify my experiences with anxiety as a full-blown disorder; while being anxious does interfere to some extent with what I would like to be doing, for the most part I am fortunate enough to be able to continue functioning.

But on an anxious day, I can also see that I'm standing on the edge of a cliff that many other people fall off of, not by choice, and boy am I sympathetic about how hard and frustrating that must be. I certainly see that in many of my students, and there's no easy fix for any of us. We have to give ourselves and each other time and perspective and patience so that ultimately we can keep going somehow.

Related: https://humanparts.medium.com/laziness-does-not-exist-3af27e312d01