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Sep. 29th, 2005 09:35 amI really have to get some work done today, so only a brief procrastinatory post (besides, Dad, I know you're always hanging by a thread just waiting for my next update!), to say:
Damn existential crises. I can never seem to shake them entirely. This one's a bit more focused, but still. Basically, I'm back at that point of trying to figure out what I want to do next with my life after grad school. Perhaps what I mean is, life beyond grad school. Much of my inspiration in school comes from the strong female mentors that I've had and my desire to similarly inspire others. But recently I keep looking around and seeing all of the hurdles of the academic lifestyle--long, demanding hours, stress, politics, personal sacrifices. On pretty much a daily basis, I see how these things have taken a toll on my advisor and her family--she and her husband, also a professor, often struggle to juggle their professional responsibilities with their family responsibilities. I guess my own life isn't exempt, either--the long days and deadlines and such get a bit overwhelming, especially because grad school has continued to nurture my bad habit of being overcommitted. It's no wonder many people drop out.
Anyway. I'm not going to be able to answer these questions right here, right now. I guess that's why it's an ongoing existential crisis. Time to get back to work. More on the subject later, perhaps.
Damn existential crises. I can never seem to shake them entirely. This one's a bit more focused, but still. Basically, I'm back at that point of trying to figure out what I want to do next with my life after grad school. Perhaps what I mean is, life beyond grad school. Much of my inspiration in school comes from the strong female mentors that I've had and my desire to similarly inspire others. But recently I keep looking around and seeing all of the hurdles of the academic lifestyle--long, demanding hours, stress, politics, personal sacrifices. On pretty much a daily basis, I see how these things have taken a toll on my advisor and her family--she and her husband, also a professor, often struggle to juggle their professional responsibilities with their family responsibilities. I guess my own life isn't exempt, either--the long days and deadlines and such get a bit overwhelming, especially because grad school has continued to nurture my bad habit of being overcommitted. It's no wonder many people drop out.
Anyway. I'm not going to be able to answer these questions right here, right now. I guess that's why it's an ongoing existential crisis. Time to get back to work. More on the subject later, perhaps.
