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rebeccmeister) wrote2016-05-19 04:53 pm
rebeccmeister) wrote2016-05-19 04:53 pm
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Dear draft
Dear draft,
I will set you down for now. I know you'll try to keep speaking to me, as I ride my bike home, as I try to sleep. I know you say something, in between saying nothing and saying everything. Nothing says nothing, and nothing says everything. There is no perfect experiment.
I have laid down a thousand tiny threads to try and tell your story, and I can never get it quite right because no story is ever perfect. I have tried to weave you together over the shouting of so many voices and interests and doubts, tried to figure out how you fit in, where you stand out. I am tired and frustrated but I will keep coming back. It is hard to know that the impact isn't proportional to the struggle after all. ["No one will ask how long it took. They will only ask, 'Who built it?']. I wish you did not cause me such feelings of sorrow and regret for your imperfections, but I hope I have the will to keep going.
I will set you down for now. I know you'll try to keep speaking to me, as I ride my bike home, as I try to sleep. I know you say something, in between saying nothing and saying everything. Nothing says nothing, and nothing says everything. There is no perfect experiment.
I have laid down a thousand tiny threads to try and tell your story, and I can never get it quite right because no story is ever perfect. I have tried to weave you together over the shouting of so many voices and interests and doubts, tried to figure out how you fit in, where you stand out. I am tired and frustrated but I will keep coming back. It is hard to know that the impact isn't proportional to the struggle after all. ["No one will ask how long it took. They will only ask, 'Who built it?']. I wish you did not cause me such feelings of sorrow and regret for your imperfections, but I hope I have the will to keep going.